After a few years of absence I am returning to this place. It seems that being online and sharing my thoughts is the only way that helps to heal my wounds and fight loneliness.Over the years I had learned how to control my heart's nature. I'm not afraid to live anymore. But I still do think that this world is not a world of mine.
From now on I will post not only my deep thoughts or feelings, but also some lighter material. You will read about some places or things I discover. Maybe about how I spent my day (or rather the night, because I avoid going out during daytime).
I found a nice place to stay. An old, unused loft in high rise building. Got a nice view from up here, especially during the night time. Thankfully there's WiFi, so I can stay online.
To end this post, here are the lyrics of a song, I heard many years ago. It has been in my heart since then, because I feel like it's quite about my life. Please enjoy, as I can't read it to you in person.
I don't know where I'm goin'
But I sure know where I've been
Hanging on the promises in songs of yesterday
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time
Here I go again, here I go again...
Tho' I keep searching for an answer
I never seem to find what I'm looking for
Oh Lord, I pray you give me strength to carry on
'Cause I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams
Here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time
Just another heart in need of rescue
Waiting on love's sweet charity
An' I'm gonna hold on for the rest of my days
'Cause I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams