I don't need anyone... Alone... Yes... When I want to think about my future, I know it will be in loneliness. I am self-sufficient. I need noone to live.

My whole life was flowing in loneliness. Why I wanted to change it? Maybe I wanted to taste the friendship? But when you taste it you must taste enmity. Sooner or later. It does not matter. Now I want go get back into dark shadow. Shade of my own soul. I want to live like earlier. To suffer and struggle with my destiny. But I prefer them than fighting with humans. In my fight only I may get hurt or agonize. When I would start a war with humans the both sides would suffer.

No... I do not want fights. I want only peace. To find a place to live and to belong.

Past

You can't erase your past. Is past really important? Yes and no. To look into the future we need to look into our past. But when we start to think about alternate way of events in past we should know, that won't change anything in present, neither in future. Thinking about that may only be painful and harmful. I know that, because I experienced it. I was considering about destroying everything which connects with my past. Then I realized that won't heal my wounds and won't help in my life.

My life changed. Everything changed. I lost control of all things. It became chaotic. All because I wanted to live with someone. Now I know that loneliness is my destiny. It is best environment for me. I belong to it. I can live in peace and happiness but alone. That is my will. I want to be alone. Always. For ever.




" 'Cause I know what it means, to walk alone the lonely street of dreams... "