I have made a decision. I will try to restore everything. My forum, run my blog more smoothly, write more posts, be more friendly... I have enough strengh to shake all this place again.

Let the era of outcasts begin

I feel better now... Some time ago I thought to myself: "Why am I so unhappy". The answer is: because I don't know how it is to be happy. All that I know is bad feelings. There weren't many good things in my life. Well, I might say there were very few things. I shouldn't be so sensitive in addiction to my past. I can't change it... So many times I wanted to forget but it is a wrong way of dealing with that kind of problem.

Now it is time to choose: get back to my old way of living or try to fix this way or go another way.

I am getting back to shape now... I thought so many hours...

Who am I? WHAT am I?
Why nobody came to visit my at the hospital - because I don't matter to anyone. I have no family, noone cares about me, I am alone. Closed in room 24/7 cause some kind of madness. You think that you will die and nobody will see that... You will be forgotten, noone will cry for you. I'm broken and I need time to heal wounds.

Happy new year...