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Posted on 6/24/2009 12:27:00 PM by Mewtwo | 1 comments

So here I am
Doing everything I can
Holding on to what I am
Pretending I’m a superman
I’m trying to keep
The ground on my feet
It seems the world’s
Falling down around me
The nights are all long
I’m singing this song
To try and make the answers
More than maybe

And I’m so confused
About what to do
Sometimes I want
To throw it all away

So here I am
Growing older all the time
Looking older all the time
Feeling younger in my mind
So here I am
Doing everything I can
Holding on to what I am
Pretending I’m a superman

I’m trying to sleep
I lost count of sheep
My mind is racing faster
Every minute
What could I do more
Yeah I’m really not sure
I know I’m running circles
But I can’t quit

And I’m so confused
About what to do
Sometimes I want to
Throw it all away

Controlling everything inside
I’m feeling weak
I don’t feel right
You’re telling me
I have to change
Telling me to act my age
But if all that I can do
Is just sit and watch time go
Then I’ll have to say good bye
Life’s too short to watch it fly
Watch it fly

So here I am
Growing older all the time
Looking older all the time
Feeling younger in my mind
So here I am
Doing everything I can
Holding on to what I am
Pretending I’m a superman

It's really hard to write something now. I'm fed up with my present life and can't take it anymore. I work my fingers to the bones and all I get is more and more problems. I've messed up pretty badly (more than once) and somehow I have to get through the mess I have created.

It hurts deeply inside to struggle with life everyday. I'm finally going to have a chance to cease my fight. But it could turn out to be a total disaster. And when this happens, I'm finished.

Pray for me. Show me, how to believe. Believe I can survive.

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Runaway Train

Posted on 6/07/2009 11:47:00 AM by Mewtwo | 0 comments

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything seems cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same



The train with my dreams almost have ran away. I had so many things to be focused on, that I totally forgot that life is not all about work. My job helps me forget about my own pain - like a medicine. Addictive medicine. The worse I feel, the more I work. Overtimes, extra tasks, everyday challenges - creatures like me need to overcome obstacles. And I don't want it to be this way - but can't find anything more soothing than my job.

And what I will do if I had to go on vacation? Go insane, I suppose.

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